Today has been a bitter sweet day. The mother of 3 of my grandbabies, my ex daughter-in-law remarried today. I have spent much of the day in contemplation and prayer. Old memories are resurfacing...memories of our lives with her as part of our family...memories of my own divorce from my first husband almost 40 years ago and his remarriage...memories of my mother struggling to parent 3 children when my Dad left when I was 4 years old. Although I have experienced great emotional pain in my life nothing prepared me for walking/crawling through the pain of betrayal and divorce with my child and grandchildren.
As I prayed today I found myself not knowing how to direct my prayers. To be honest I am experiencing a sense of release and relief...a sense of closure and an opportunity for a new beginning for my son. I found myself simply praying "Lord make her the woman you created her to be" and "may they come to provide a Godly home and example for my grandbabies".
Over the last 3 years I have been seeking the Godly definition of; forgiveness (even when there is no repentance); Godly love (according to God's Word); and what it really means to "cast all your cares upon Him...".
Today has been bitter sweet....knowing that Gods promise for the righteous is to make the bitter into sweet brings peace and a sense of anticipation...
Saturday, June 25, 2011
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